The Downsizing of Karen

Two for two!!

2012-01-21T19:41:00.000-08:00

Well I'm proud to say that for two weeks - I've had two loses and it equals 2kg! Two seems to be my lucky number so far!
will be back for a better blogging soon - have a sick child to deal with.

have a great week.

Super proud of myself

2012-01-09T00:30:00.000-08:00

Hi to anyone reading this.

Today was my first day of following the old points system through weight watchers. I won't be allowed to get the new system till I have my baby and really, I'm doing it for portion control. That's my biggest lesson from weight watchers - have WHATEVER you like but it has to be within reason.
I must say - I'm pretty chuffed, I have made conscious choices of what I have eaten today and I don't feel deprived or at all hungry. I still have 7 points up my sleeve. Going to have an ice cream soon and then I will be left with 5 points.
I have also made an effort tonight (with hubby's help) to sort the fridge out - I like being able to see what we have available to use - I LOATHE throwing food out or having it spoil - such a waste from the word go - not just me throwing the money away but the farmer who took the effort to make it, the transport to the shop to sell it and then my transport to get it home - urgh - really gets on my goat because I always try to make the least amount of carbon footprint.
Enough about the green movement though - more about my movement - I have joined up to Contours - I think it will be awesome for me while I'm pregnant and for when I start back after bubs is born.
I'm currently making up a timetable to stick next to my bed of what times and days there are certain things I want to join in with. This way - I already know what's going on and on what days so I can plan and not get caught up with my usual 'oh I would have liked to do that but only have 5 minutes to get there'.
Taking hubby to the movies tomorrow - so I've already packed my morning tea to avoid the temptation that is the deliciousness of popcorn. I'm determined this time - my life as I know it - should never be the same if I follow through with my plans.

How's things in your world???

Talk soon

productive day

2011-12-11T21:47:00.000-08:00

Well I promised I would spend my 'boy free time' today focused on things for myself and I tell you what - I got so much done!
I don't know if others are like me - but when the house is a mess - my mind is a mess. When life is more organised, everything doesn't feel so overwhelming.
I was able to go through my weight watchers stuff, work on my vision board, work out what needs to be done this week and do a few jobs that had been on the husband's list way too long for my liking :)
I actually took the time to look around my pantry - now - I must explain - my pantry is a room on it's own - it used to be the kitchen before we built a whole new kitchen. It is so disorganised. There are boxes of half eaten cereal, about 10 tins of spaghetti and who only knows what lurking in the corner. My mission this week is to try and get some organisation to it - that way - being prepared is half the key to weight loss success.
So my challenge to myself this week - to organise the pantry - which will then help me organise my foot intake.

What's your challenge for this week??

Too long between posts

2011-12-07T14:35:00.000-08:00

Well - this is the online journal of a woman who just doesn't know where to start. Life is hectic and everyone has the same 24 hours in the day yet, my 24 hours seem to be solely focused on other things before I get to me. I have a very active (and I'm totally grateful for that) toddler, I'm currently 22 weeks pregnant with our second child and my husband has been off injured for the last 3 months while he was hurt on duty. This means that everything has fallen onto my plate when it comes to the house, our child and trying to fit my paying job in there too. I'm not going to lie - it's been a hard, stressful couple of months but we knew it was not going to be forever. The point I guess I'm trying to make, something had to give in that time and unfortunately, due to morning sickness, my food intake and exercise seemed to be the first two things that dropped off the list.
I have been working hard to shift that focus back into the priority list, hence why I'm back on my blog. I feel if I have a place to vent my ramblings, it will bring it into perspective and keep me on the path I want to take.
My husband and I have been saving so I can take as much time off with the kids as possible before having to go back to work. For me, my family and my kid's development is SO important to me and it highlights the fact that I need to make sure that I am physically fit and healthy so I can be around to do that. Any time I have away with them from illness is wasted time. I hate wasted time. It's my job as a parent to set the right example.
Back to the fitness path I wish to take - my current goal is 118kg - I AM NOT GOING TO GET TO 119!!! I am off to work out a meal plan and the old line of 'I'll just grab something now' is not allowed anymore. Work with the family to make these changes permanent.
Have a good week and thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings. I will be back soon!!!
K

2011-06-12T16:06:00.001-07:00

Have a think and tell me honestly - how much money do you think you have spent on fitness and health?? I have spent unimaginable amounts on magazines, gym memberships, special food, special clothes, special footwear, dvds, weight watchers paraphernalia, cookbooks - yet I still weigh over 100kg!
I keep a special collection of inspiration and work outs that I will get to 'someday' - well - someday is about to arrive. I'm one of those people who had an idea of a perfect time to come to start all this - well - my perfect time has arrived.
I am committing myself to making the best choice of food for every meal. I have filled a 2L jug of water and have a glass next to it on the kitchen bench - so every time I go past it - I'll have a drink and that jug is to be emptied by the end of the day, if not before.
The fruit bowl is right next to the water, anytime I feel like a snack, fruit is my option. I am forbidding myself from having take away for the rest of the month. I have a pantry (which is it's own room) of food to be eaten. I have spent the money on purchasing it, therefore it will be consumed. I have suppressed my passion for cooking in favour of doing other things. I need to manage my time better.
Since I am still sick and walking from one room to the other leaves me breathless, I'm going to focus my work outs this week on toning and flexibility. I am aiming to do 100 a day of the following pushups, sit ups, planks, lunges, squats, tricep kickbacks, side kicks and being mindful of my posture. I am hunching and hovelling.
I will also be going through my workout and inspiration collection - putting them in a prominent place to keep my mind on the task at hand - which is my first goal to get to 99kg.
Wish me luck!!

Have to get my head in the game.

2011-06-06T02:52:00.000-07:00

I have been slack in regards to putting my needs first. My major focus my son and like so many mums out there - I dedicate the majority of my time and energy into him. With the energy I have left, I spend time with my husband and household. Factoring in that I work in there and I currently have sinus issues - needless to say my motivation to exercise is at an extreme minimal.
I desperately want to lose the weight - I'm currently at 108kg (that's 38kg over what I would like to be) so how do you find the tradeoff?? (I'm open to suggestions).
I've been extremely inspired by Amy from Aim to Change. She is only five kilos away from having shed 100kg. She truly is an amazing spirit and inspiration.
So tomorrow, my son and I have swimming. He usually has a sleep before this, so I am making it my mission (and losing the mother guilt) and doing an exercise dvd.

I get so angry at myself, I dread to think how much I have spent on exercise equipment, dvds, memberships - yet my mind wins for eating junk and crap every time or I wouldn't be this size. I need to take more pride in my appearance - I've become comfortable with whatever is easy and practical.

Enough rambling - I need to get to bed (woke up at 3am and couldn't sleep)

so be good, have fun and tomorrow is another day!!

K

Acceptance

2011-03-04T16:59:00.001-08:00

'They' say the first step is accepting. So ... I'm taking that first step.

When I put all this out there - the way I have abused and treated my body for 20 years now and that is so hard to fathom - it just blows my mind. The rubbish I have put into my body - fat, sugar, artificial crap, cigarettes, medication, chemicals, I am in awe of my body and the way it has coped with this level of abuse.

I am no different to a junkie who needs their fix - I need my fix and I get that from food. Food has been my longest relationship and my most abusive. It's like the beaten wife syndrome. It abuses me (as much as I abuse it), it makes me feel like crap, yet - I perpetually go back for me.

I'm looking to educate myself as well as build up the strength and confidence to choose the food that is going to be the best for my body.

But first I must accept that no matter how I feel about my body now - I must admit that it is incredible. There are parts aesthetically I'm not proud of but it will take time and commitment to change that. There are some parts that have broken down (but I don't blame them) but I'm accepting that I have put myself in to this position and my body is still able to function. So with some tender loving care, I hope to reach a healthy weight, I hope to feel confident in what I ask my body to do and it grows to be stronger every day.

I accept that I have allowed my body to be 45kg overweight. I accept have allowed my body to be within its limitations because I haven't exercised or stretched - but I also accept the challenge of righting these wrongs.

I hope my body forgives me and adapts to the new challenge I want to achieve for a better lifestyle and happiness.

'They' say - train the mind and the body will follow - so true!!

Have a great day and wishing you all the success to achieve your goals.

karen

Going round in circles

2011-03-04T16:52:00.001-08:00

Well - I start again today with the sense that every area of my life needs an overhaul.

My finances, my marriage, my home life, my working life, my social life, my exercise, my eating, my weight, my happiness and my mental health, how I spend my time and I have no idea where to start. I know these areas need my attention so I'm going to sit down and write down what I think needs to change in these areas for me to feel productive, happy and rewarded.

I am a married mum of a 9 month old boy. I'm hoping to use this blog as an online journal. I'll document what works for me and what doesn't.

The first area I'm going to work with is planning my food intake and exercise time. I don't really get time through the day to work out and I'm just going to have to commit to no matter how tired and sore I am from the day, when bubblet goes to sleep, I have to get my sneakers on and work out.

Go hard people - wishing you the best of success in your day.

Karen